Mothers and Fucks

Relationships with your family are a hard thing. You can’t just sever them without deep repercussions. And as much as you try to run and hide, it will catch up with you in the end. On Tuesday I got some disturbing news about my mom from my aunt. It’s a tale of deceit and martyrdom that I’ve heard way too often. But this time it’s done in such a grand scale that I can’t help but he very upset with my mom. If this were any other person, I could directly confront her and just erase her from my life. But this is my mother, and it just doesn’t work as easily. So now I’m put in the role of the parent trying to confront a teenage daughter, and I don’t like this. I guess this is some karmic retribution for my actions in high school. Whatever it is, I don’t like it. With this brewing all week long¹, one of my employees put in her notice. Her last day is this coming Friday. Call it the cherry (dingleberry?) on top of the shit sundae, but now I’m just feeling helpless and not in control. And for an Aries that’s a horrible position to be in. So here’s to hoping that this coming week will be a better one. And here’s to hoping this fucking guy I’ve been chatting up on Manhunt doesn’t fucking flake. I know I know I know. It’s Manhunt. What do you expect? Yada yada yada. But I really need an outlet right now, and I’m just about ready to burst. ¹ I haven’t talked to my family this much in years. Better yet, I haven’t spoken in Korean this often in a long time either. It’s weird cuz I had a dream last night that I was in Seoul with urbanemonkey and her boyfriend showing them around. Huh.